I don’t remember what it feels like to receive a hug or a kiss from my children. I don’t remember what it feels like to hug or kiss any of my 8 grandchildren (I’ve never seen any of my grandchildren in person). I don’t remember what many of my family members look like. I don’t remember what it feels like to hold a woman’s hand. I don’t remember what it feels like take to a bath in a bath tub. I don’t remember what it feels like to walk outside at 4 am and smell the morning air or go wherever I choose to go. I don’t remember what it feels like to go shopping and buy whatever I want or spend whatever amount I choose to spend. I don’t remember what it feels like to just hang out with my family or friends…I don’t remember how to love or trust people anymore. WHY????…Because I’ve been in federal captivity which is an inhumane environment since January 29, 1990. I’m 66 years old and it’s a high probability that I will die in federal captivity not remembering who Eddie Lee Fryer really is!!!
— Eddie F.